So I have a Dissertation due in at the end of January.
I’m also away travelling to see various friends/family for most of the Xmas holiday period. Therefore I should really be doing some work towards said dissertation. But I had a major deadline on Friday, so I deserve a few days off right? This ‘few days’ is looking more like a week though. oops. Today I’m just totally braindead and cant even find the motivation to get changed out of my bike gear, since riding home from the boyf’s house this morning (whaaat? Its stretchy and warm and comfy). I’ve watched a film, which wasn’t the most productive thing to do. But I did cook myself some actual food (eating more than once a day has become a rarity leading up to deadline) so I feel proud at that. I also finally did the hoovering. So that’s two productive things? Even if they’re not work related.
I can feel the deadline looming, and the anxiety building deep in my stomach. But I’m toying with the idea of going out again on my bike, but its dark, which means even with my super-powerful lights, riding through the mud becomes a total chore. I could go on a street-ride, but roads are no fun, and its rush-hour soon. So there will be cars.
Speaking of Cars, my driving instructor cancelled my lesson today, after me cancelling one last week (due to workload) meaning it’ll be three weeks since I last drove, in my next lesson. That’s clearly going to work GREAT with my irrational fear of other traffic, and roundabouts, and my unwillingness to learn to drive.
At some point I’m going to get up early, like sunrise early, and take the bike for a proper workout before everyone is around. There’s nothing prettier than the countryside at sunrise, when everything is still all misty and there’s not many other people around. The isolation is idyllic. Hopefully it’ll clear my brain, and help me to concentrate on the important stuff, like this bloody dissertation.